Now that I see you is the winner of the 2021 Australian/Vogel Literary Award.

Viewed through the lens of a relationship breakdown after one partner discloses to the other that they are transgender, this autofiction spans eighteen months: from the moments of first discovery, through the eventual disintegration of their partnership, to the new beginnings of independence.

In diaries and letters, Now That I See You unfolds a love story that, while often messy and uncomfortable, is a poignant and personal exploration of identity, gender, love and grief.

Read Now that I see you

Now that I see you is available in all formats in Australia and is available in paperback the United States from 10 January 2023.

You can read the first chapter here.


Canberra author Emma Batchelor has won the Vogel Literary Award for her book about learning her partner is transgender: The Canberra Times, April 30, 2021

Now That I See You: Emma Batchelor’s memoir wins The Vogel Award: HerCanberra, April 30, 2021

How truth and fiction won Emma Batchelor this year’s Vogel Award: Sydney Morning Herald, April 30, 2021

Emma Batchelor on her intensely personal, Vogel Prize-winning debut, ‘Now That I See You’: Happy Mag, May 7, 2021

Vogel winning tale of love brave and bold: The Australian, June 18, 2021


‘An insightful novel . . . absorbing page-turner from the start.’ Hsu-Ming Teo, previous winner of The Australian/Vogel’s Literary Award for Love and Vertigo

‘A psychological masterclass in exploring how and why we become who we are and what that means for the people closest to us.’ Stephen Romei, The Australian

Building a Conscious Wardrobe (and other fun things) is currently out of print.

Fashion isn’t all fun and games; there is a true cost to the clothes that we wear. The fashion industry is one of the most polluting in the world and many of the garment workers who produce the clothes we wear are not paid a living wage and work in horrible conditions.

We want to change the way people think about their clothes through our new publication ‘Building a Conscious Wardrobe – And Other fun Things.’ It includes simple how-to tips for shopping, styling, caring and disposing of clothing and textiles in a more conscious way, profiles on ethical and sustainable designers, short essays, inspiring visual editorials and personal stories.

Written, edited and compiled by Emma Batchelor.
Illustrated by Lexi Keelan.
Designed by Lexi Keelan and Emma Batchelor.

Contributions from Lilah Gow, Chris Walsh, James Harber of Who Shot the Photographer, Nina Gbor, Sheena Ireland, Lori Ciccini, Lydia Downe, and Tracy Lee.

Profiles on Aymara Textiles, Blanc & White Collective, Cameron & James, Carlie Ballard, EDITION, Every Thread Counts, Gabrielle Spencer Bridal, Karen Lee, MAAK, Moonbird, Pure Pod, Rockstars and Royalty, Thunder Thighs / Infinitie, Wombat & Poss and the Salvation Army.